The Knitterly Hooker

Relieved

In community challenges, knitting on March 12, 2014 at 10:57 pm

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Have you ever felt relieved that you never knit for someone?

For me to knit anything for anyone is a process. I gotta feel you out first; I have to be really moved in my spirit. I actually get this feeling a lot for different things…I don’t always listen, though, but I should because it is always 100% right…without fail. Note to self: Hence forth, listen. Seriously.

I read before somewhere that “you should stop crossing oceans for people who won’t jump a puddle for you.” That’s the truth ain’t it?! “Yes the hell it is!” is the answer that should be coming out your mouth right now!

To me, knitting for someone is like giving them your kidney. It’s that serious. Yes it is. Imma tell you why… Knitting is an act of embedding your very energy of that exact moment into that piece with every movement of the needle. You’re embedding your good vibes and feelings into the item. With each knitted stitch,you’re knitting a smile into the work; you’re knitting warmth and care. Making hand knitted items tell that person they’re special, but if you have that thing that every knitter feels, that internal radar that makes you cringe… that makes you say, “No sweater for you!” Knitted items are a reward for good behavior…for someone consistent, not a sometimish person. Pulease!

If I had knit this time around, I wouldn’t have felt good. It would have felt so false, that it would have sickened my stomach. That’s some bad juju that was just creeping its way into my life that just plain don’t need to be there! I would have had so much resent and contempt if I did any knitting; investing time and energy in exchange for such ingratitude, arrogance, false sense of entitlement, selfishness, narcissism, disrespect and control…The list can go on.

I thought about it though. Knitting. I did think about it. And I almost did it too. Almost. But almost doesn’t count.

I’m sure all this sounds terribly selfish, but I suppose at this moment the feeling of selfishness is inconsequential. Maybe I wasn’t being selfish enough. That’s the problem. My heartstrings were tugging on this and I’m glad I did not do any knitting.

Au revoir petit garçon. Temps de grandir. Bonne chance.

Anyway. Hmph.

I.am.relieved.
I bounce back. I always do. Believe that.

My life goes on and something big is about to happen!
It’s going down! Deadline June 1, 2014. That’s all I’m saying and I hope I make it!

And after that, there will still be bigger things beyond my wildest dreams; and then and only then,will I knit.

Who do you knit for, if anyone? Why or why not?

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  1. I really enjoyed this piece, Lady “M.” Yes, I agree–go with your gut. Knitting/Crocheting comes from the heart. When you see something that you invested so much time in, on the floor or forgotten about and packed away, it can really psychologically impact you. This Christmas everyone of my family members that I received a gift from, received a crocheted item. I lost hours of sleep getting these items done. Most people were grateful, others…well not so much. I received suggestions about different colors, or what they what have preferred, and was even told I was selfish when I made things for my self!!!??? I haven’t made anything for myself in years! But I made things for everyone this Christmas for a reason. They can no longer claim I have never made them anything (some do). And now, I don’t have to make them anything ever again. Whine and beg but for a majority of them, especially the unappreciative, I am done! It seems harsh, but I am giving you a part of my heart and a lot of my time when I make something for you. Many don’t understand this because as an adult, I have never received anything handmade from my family members. I remember giving my friend, a well known knitter, a hairpin lace shawl, made with some fancy yarn she had given me from her collection. She got teary eyed and I asked her why. Her response, “As a knitter, I never get anything handmaid for me, so I really appreciate this!” After this Christmas, I have a new appreciation for her sentiments.

    • Thank you! Yeh, I’m not into coercion. The more I’m nagged the less likely it will be made. The same with guilt trips… I don’t do those. I think that was super awesome that you made something handmade for your knitter friend… I think if I got a handmade gift I would probably react the same way. But you know what, this is our own fault… We need to make not only for our individual selves but us as a united group of creators… That’s an idea! Maybe our meetup could do a secret handmade swap or something! Maybe even as a blog post and online swap of sorts…. Hmm. I think it’s true, we creators never get anything created for us. Non creators don’t get it and they’ll never get it; I’ve come to that realization. In this piece I’m talking about being grateful that you never made something for someone and as means of expressing your feelings for them etc.

    • And no, I don’t see this at all as being selfish. I think it’s time to start making for yourself… Speaking if which, aren’t you supposed to be working on a knitted sweater for yourself? I can help you if you want.

    • Check the next post! Thanks for the inspiration!

  2. There are some people that hand knitted and crocheted items are completely wasted on. If they are not going to appreciate the time, love and passion that goes into it then you can only be disappointed. X

  3. I am supposed to making something for me! I need to be selfish, cause it still hasn’t happened. Thanks for the offer of help.

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